Growing up in a strict Christian household and going through every ritual known to man, I found myself starving spiritually. I did everything I thought was “right” in the eyes of man. The “sinners prayer”, baptism, communion, all to which had zero effect on my worldly behavior and my severely lost soul. After attending several spiritually dead assembly’s, I suffered from extreme judgment and condemnation from those professing to be Christians. I ultimately came to the conclusion that many do when they cant find the love of Christ in a religious setting,There is no God. To those reading this now, I say, I have never been so wrong. For many years I drowned in hopelessness trying to satisfy my never ending need to feel loved by this world. After exhausting quite literally every form of vanity known, I had lost all will to live.In January of 2017, I cried (screamed really) for Jesus to please save me from this life of despair. I had made a true hearts cry that day and for the first time in my life, I felt a love that cannot and has not compared to the love I felt and continue to feel. His love made me utterly tasteless for what this world has to offer. Days later after much crying and repenting and praying and crying and repenting and crying some more, I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. My eyes were opened and my world was turned upside down. I was on fire for God in such a way that I despised the very flesh I was bound to. I was very immature in the way I communicated and in turn, I caused a lot of friction between myself and those I love. I prayed earnestly for God to bring someone into my life that could help me and relate to the revelation happening in my soul.A couple of months later, by divine appointment, I was introduced to a true man of God and a devout follower of Christ. He was sent into my life to introduce me to exactly what I needed, discipleship. Though not a disciple of himself, but of our Lord Jesus Christ. We began the Journey a year ago and it has most effectively helped me realize just what discipleship means. There is no better place than sitting at the feet of Jesus and learning the depths of the Word of God. As we read weekly the scriptures together in our gathering of disciples, we begin to see the Holy Spirit move and communicate through us. What a beautiful thing it is to witness the birth of something we are truly meant to be. His church. His body. His disciple.